A Christmas Story, Part 3

 December 1944, Budapest, Hungary, Part 3

by Nick Ittzes and Christa (Ittzes) Upton

 Father heard them coming and stood outside the parlor door, his blue eyes sparkling.  They reached the parlor, and Mother smiled at Father.  He waited just a moment and then flung wide the parlor doors.  The boys rushed forward with wide eyes and glowing faces.  Little Eva sucked on her fingers and stared, entranced, at the bright room.  The miracle had happened—they were able to give the children a lovely Christmas.

Yehno saw the new blocks right away.  He looked up at Mother and said, “Those belong to Mikloshka. The old ones are just fine for me.”  He was only two years old but already so unselfish.  Giving to others and showing love came so naturally to this little one.  But no one knew that this would be little Yehno’s last Christmas on earth.

A few short months after Christmas, many children in the city came down with the dreaded pneumonia.  In those days, no antibiotics were available.  Miklosh’s body fought the illness, and slowly he grew well.  But gradually Yehno became weaker and weaker, and finally his body succumbed to the disease.

Many friends and family gathered as Yehno’s body was lowered into the grave.  Sweet, gentle Mother felt that her heart was breaking.  Her little boy, her darling, had been ushered to his eternal Home, and she already missed him.  She held precious baby Eva tightly and hugged dear little Mikloshka even harder to her side, as if to make sure they would stay on earth with her forever.  Miklosh looked up at her with tears and questions in his blue eyes, and Mother wept.

For some time, Miklosh would look for Yehno with a broken heart, not fully understanding death. But he grew to know that Yehno is safe with the same Jesus who visited them in the winter of 1944.

“For unto us a Child is born, unto us a Son is given,” they had read in Isaiah. 

What is Christmas but the birth of the One Who had conquered death forever?!  The Christ Child, a Savior, had come to earth.  His death on the cross and His resurrection had secured a place in Heaven for all who would receive Him.  One day they would see Yehno again.  One day, they would all be in that beautiful, happy place in the presence of Almighty God.  One day they would all be Home.

 

Christa’s note:  “Mother” and “Father” were my dear grandparents, and Miklosh is my beloved father.  My grandparents are now reunited with Yehno in heaven and happier than they ever could have imagined.  I look forward to seeing them all one day.  Praise God for His victory over death and His Son that gives us life!!!

 

 Merry Christmas!

Christa Upton      Black Hills Picture Books     Edgemont, SD  57735

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A Christmas Story, Part 2

December 1944, Budapest, Hungary, Part 2

by Nick Ittzes and Christa (Ittzes) Upton

What was this?  A woodcarver?  She had not seen this shop before!  And, oh, could it be?—a set of brightly-painted blocks in the window!

She rushed into the store and approached the owner.

“Excuse me sir,” she began a bit breathlessly, “those blocks—are they for sale?”

The old man looked up and smiled.

“Certainly, Ma’am.”  He set down the tool he was using to carve a piece of oak and brushed sawdust from his lap.  “Would you like to see them?

“Oh, yes!”

“I’ll get a box here….”  The woodcarver stood, walked to the back of the shop and came back with a wooden box.  “Let me just put all these in….  There!”  He held the box, now full of blue, green, red, and yellow blocks, toward Grandmother.  Grandmother picked up one of the blocks.  Its surface felt as smooth as satin, ready for a child’s hands.

“I’ll take them!”  Suddenly the gray day brightened.

Five days later, the children lay in their beds for naps, and the adults had gathered in the parlor.  They worked busily arranging presents, lighting candles, and hanging decorations and homemade treats wrapped in foil saved from cigarette packages.  Grandfather held the Christmas tree steady while Father lit the highest candles.

“I cannot imagine where those soldiers found those Christmas trees!” marveled Mother.  “And how did they happen to come by exactly at the time when you were standing there on the street?!”

Three days prior, Grandmother had been amazed to see two soldiers coming down the street, each carrying a Christmas tree.  She had approached the soldiers and asked: “Would you consider selling one of those trees to me?  My husband is a Colonel in the army, and our grandsons are with us.  We have no tree.” They had insisted she take a tree as a gift.

Grandmother finished hanging a decoration on the tree and said, “Our God can answer prayers any way He wants!”  A warm feeling passed through all their hearts as they thought of how God had bestowed on them this little gift, this little reminder that they were known and loved by God despite the difficult years they had been through.

Father stepped back to admire the tree.

“Are we ready?” asked Grandfather.  They all nodded and smiled.  Mother stepped out to wake the children.

As she opened the bedroom door, suddenly they all heard a faint, “Ding-aling, Ding-aling, Ding!”

“It’s the bell!” shrieked Miklosh.  “Come on, Yehno!”  He slid out of bed and ran to his brother’s side, and his little four-year-old hand grasped Yehno’s even smaller hand.  Mother picked up baby Eva, and they headed to the parlor together.  Two-year old Yehno didn’t remember last Christmas, but Miklosh had told him all about it.  Nearly bursting with excitement, the boys pattered down the long hallway with Mother and baby Eva following behind.

to be continued….

 

 

Christa Upton        Black Hills Picture Books          PO Box 293          Custer, SD  57730

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A Christmas Story, Part 1

December 1944, Budapest, Hungary, Part 1

by Nick Ittzes and Christa (Ittzes) Upton

 A chill wind blew, whipping the ends of Grandmother’s bright red and yellow head scarf.  She absentmindedly put her hand up to touch the scarf as she shuffled silently down the street, but she didn’t really think about the cold.  What was large in her mind was Christmas.

In the war-torn, sad country of Hungary, how would they provide Christmas for the children?   Every year, the adults would plan and prepare, scheme and create.  They would close the parlor door to hide the secrets and decorate an evergreen tree with beautiful candies and bright candles.  They would carefully choose gifts for each child—a fun toy, a colorful book, and maybe a new sweater or jacket.  On Christmas Eve, they would ring the bell to call the excited children to the parlor door, announcing that “Jézuska” (the Christ Child) had visited.  Then they would open the door, revealing the sparkling tree and all the lovely surprises.  How they loved to see the children’s faces, full of wonder and awe!  How they enjoyed the children’s delight, as the children would rush forward and then stop short of the tree, gazing in amazement and eagerness.  Then they would have a short Scriptural devotion, and after that the children would play and enjoy the Christmas treats.  Grandmother smiled at the memories of her sweet children and grandchildren over the years.  The happiness of the children had often brought tears of joy to her eyes.

But today, the gray sky and cold buildings mirrored how Grandmother felt inside—dreary, cold, and discouraged.  There appeared no way to get a Christmas tree or anything to put under the tree.

Air raids had punctuated the little family’s Advent season.  Howling sirens would announce the dreaded bombings and send everyone fleeing to the basement. No one dared come in from the surrounding countryside because of the fierce air raids.  So the stores were nearly empty, regular groceries unavailable. Mere survival was a daunting challenge.  It seemed impossible to show the children in tangible ways how much they were loved.

Grandmother stood in the street for a second, thinking.  She looked over Budapest, and far in the distance she could just see the boats on the Blue Danube.  Normally from here, she could see the sparkle of the river, too, but today no sunshine could break through the thick clouds to cause any sparkle.   She turned back to the street and continued walking.  A few minutes later, she paused at a side-street and decided to walk down it….

to be continued….

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A Broken Heart on Christmas

I know there are many people suffering with a broken heart this Christmas, and this post is for you.  I hope that this can encourage you.

I wrote the following “poem” a few years ago.  At the time, I was facing the major death of dreams, the sorrow of being disabled and excluded from society (by MCS), grief over many losses, the uncertainty of the future (because of MCS), and the feeling of rejection.  Some of you face similar sorrows.  Others of you have family or friends that hurt you dreadfully; I’m sorry, it’s not right.  Others of you are suffering terrifying news, crushing disappointment, hopelessness….

The Christmas Sham

by Christa Upton

Christmas trees don’t make up for broken hearts;
Christmas lights and candy don’t heal sorrow.
Pretty decorations, presents, and cookies
Can never take away the ache, the sadness, the loneliness.
 
Christmas music sometimes sounds so fake;
Wishes seem hollow when your world’s falling apart.
Stockings, dinners, and parties
Don’t fill the empty spots we feel.
 
Just like Charlie Brown, sometimes we falter.
We wonder why we don’t feel Christmas happiness.
Five cents at Lucy’s booth won’t give us the cure.
Our world seems to think that
Things should be okay and happy,
But sometimes the only way we can agree with that
Is to pretend.
 
Even if we never see our dreams on earth,
Even if we seem to suffer on and on,
When we are following Jesus,
It is not for us to hang our heads in shame,
For even the men of faith listed in Hebrews
Did not receive on earth what was promised them.
 
What does it mean?  Sometimes we don’t understand.
But someday You will come for all who love You,
Draw us close to Your lovely Presence,
Bring us where there are no tears or pain, one day.
And everything will be okay.

 

Christa Upton    Black Hills Picture Books     PO Box 293     Custer, SD 57730

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Peace on Earth

Ah…peace—we all long for it!

Many of us struggle with hectic schedules and long “to do” lists; (yes even homebound and “half-bedridden,” my “to do” list seems to grow like Jack’s beanstalk!)  Some may have other reasons for lack of peace—relational troubles, physical pain, or unsure future.  Others literally live in war zones and have little hope for people getting along.

How do we find peace?

We can’t force it to happen.  We can’t control other people.  Often, we can’t control our circumstances.

There’s one thing we can do:  surrender to God.

Why does surrendering to God bring peace?

One reason is that God is the only One Who truly knows best.  We could search out the wisest person in the world, and that person’s wisdom would pale in comparison to the One Who made the galaxies, Who formed molecules, Who created time.

Even our schedules and “to do” lists become more manageable when we are willing to listen to God.  You might ask Him today if there is anything you can cross off your list (so that you can accomplish His priorities instead).

Another reason surrendering to God brings peace is that God is in control.  We could (theoretically) be at peace with all human beings and still be out of step with God.  God has provided the Way for us to be at peace with Him.  That trumps all.

Want TRUE peace?  Look no further than the Prince of Peace.

“For unto us a Child is born, Unto us a Son is given; And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.”  Isaiah 9:6

I pray that you can feel peace from the Lord this Christmas!!

 

Christa Upton   Black Hills Picture Books   PO Box 293    Custer, SD  57730

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5 Ways to Survive Chronic Illness and Christmas

Chronic illness affects everything, Christmas included.

  1. Join a support group, online if you can’t get out.  There are few people who understand chronic illness like others who are chronically ill.  Right now, one of my support groups is going through Advent Scriptures and symbols together—uplifting!!
  2. Focus on the hope of heaven and celebrate that.  Even if you do not have a lot to “celebrate” in the midst of your pain, the hope of heaven is always worth celebrating.  Christmas is celebrating Jesus coming to earth (in a lowly manger) to make a way for us to go to heaven.
  3. Remember that “joy” has little to do with “happiness.”  http://www.gotquestions.org/joy-happiness.html
  4. Don’t feel guilty for what you can’t do.  Maybe you can’t cook, decorate, buy, reach out, etc. like you used to.  That doesn’t mean you don’t love your friends or family.
  5. Celebrate what you can do.  Maybe it’s something as simple as encouraging a friend on Facebook.

 Do you have any ideas for getting through Christmas while ill?

 

Christa Upton      Black Hills Picture Books    PO Box 293    Custer, SD 57730

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30 Things I’m Thankful For

  1. God being perfectly loving
  2. God forgiving my sins through the sacrifice of Jesus
  3. God allowing me to come to Him in prayer
  4. my husband
  5. my kids
  6. my parents, parents-in-law, siblings, & other family
  7. a house
  8. a flush toilet
  9. electricity
  10. sunshine
  11. chronic illness support groups
  12. books
  13. the most important book—the Bible
  14. God’s grace
  15. chocolate
  16. birds
  17. stainless steel
  18. sunsets
  19. water
  20. friends
  21. funny things/laughter
  22. God’s faithfulness
  23. heaven
  24. quilts
  25. computers and internet
  26. doctors (they have literally saved my daughter’s life numerous times; yeah, I’m more thankful than most that God gave humans medical wisdom)
  27. cameras
  28. bluebells and other wildflowers
  29. stars
  30. knowing no matter what happens, God will not leave me or forsake me

 

Happy Thanksgiving, and see you next week!

 

Would you like to share what you are thankful for?

Christa Upton       Black Hills Picture Books         PO Box 293          Custer, SD 57730

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All-Natural Green Bean Casserole

Another recipe post, in light of Thanksgiving….  🙂

http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/alton-brown/best-ever-green-bean-casserole-recipe/index.html

I love this recipe.  Forget the turkey, just give me a bowl of this (and some sweet potatoes and apple pie).  🙂

For the onions:

  • Whole wheat flour works great.
  • I haven’t tried it, but one could probably use potato flour or some other gluten-free substitute.  (I used to make fried pumpkin blossoms with potato flour, and they were fantastic!)
  • I use regular (whole wheat) bread crumbs; yeah, not as crunchy as Panko but still good.  Gluten-free crackers or bread would probably be great.
  • I just use regular olive oil on the sheet pan for the onions.
  • If you use regular salt (rather than Kosher), use far less.  Try sprinkling it on the onions like you would salt your meal.

You can substitute canned beans for the fresh cooked.

If you make the sauce with salted butter, just taste and only add salt if needed at the end.

You could also use cornstarch or other gluten-free substitute instead of flour to thicken this.  Use the correct methods to achieve nice results:  http://www.wikihow.com/Thicken-Sauce

To make this dairy-free, try just doubling the broth and adding no dairy.  Or, add a dairy substitute that can be used in “white sauces.”

 

Christa Upton        Black Hills Picture Books       PO Box 293       Custer, SD 57730

 

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A Favorite Treat

No, it’s not sugar free, but it’s preservative free (and “chemical free” if you use all organic, non-GMO, etc.)   🙂

(And also it’s fat free, like is says at the bottom of the recipe.)

My favorite recipe for chocolate syrup:

http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/alton-brown/cocoa-syrup-recipe/index.html

If you use regular salt (rather than Kosher), use far less salt, like maybe just a few dashes.

It’s good on oatmeal, in warm milk for hot cocoa, and just straight on a spoon.  (Shh, don’t tell anyone my spoonful-of-syrup-sneaky-snack.)

 

 

Christa Upton         Black Hills Picture Books           PO Box 293        Custer, SD 57730

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Guest Post–Discovering a Little Respect

by Martha McLaughlin

[From Christa:  Today I am happy to have my friend Martha as my guest!  She recently posted the following thoughts on her blog. (You can find her blog here: http://sharingair.blogspot.com/ )   Martha is a compassionate, patient, gracious, fellow-sufferer of MCS.   Her blog is full of great research, tips, and encouragement.]

 

Discovering a Little Respect, by Martha Mclaughlin

There’s so much bad news about everyday toxins and such a lack of understanding of chemical illness that I always like to celebrate the victories. This week, I’m happy to highlight an article published in Discover magazine which describes chemical illness (which they call Toxicant-Induced Loss of Tolerance, or TILT) in a respectful and serious manner. It makes the following points:

  • Sometimes when people get sick after a toxic exposure, their neurological and immune systems remain damaged and they lose tolerance for a wide range of chemicals. People with TILT can become more reactive to chemicals over time.
  • Substances that trigger symptoms are often unrelated structurally and include things like airborn inhalants, foods, drugs, lotions, soaps, detergents, and newsprint. Symptoms can include cardiac and neurological problems, headaches, anxiety, gut issues, asthma, depression, sleep disturbance, and impaired cognitive ability.
  • The wide range of symptoms and triggering substances has often led patients to be labeled as mentally ill.
  • TILT may be driven by epigenetic changes, which occur when an environmental exposure changes genetic expression. “Surprisingly low” doses of certain chemicals can strongly affect gene activity. Once a gene has been switched on and a cell has been reprogrammed, it’s hard for it to go back to its original state.
  • TILT has been documented in many different countries, including nine in Europe, as well as Canada, Japan, New Zealand, and Australia.
  • Because there is no blood-brain barrier in the olfactory system, toxicants can travel straight into the brain from receptors in the nose. Even healthy people demonstrate changes in brain waves during brief exposure to olfactory stimuli that is too low to be consciously perceived.
  • Studies have shown that people with chemical intolerance have greater sensitization of their central nervous system. They also have a decrease in blood flow to specific brain areas when exposed to everyday chemical fumes. A study of Gulf War veterans suffering from TILT found decreased blood flow through the central artery in the brain when they were exposed to acetone.
  • Despite the research, controversy over the condition remains.

The article is definitely much better than most I’ve read about toxic illness. It provides some validation for those of us who suffer from it, and I hope it will also serve as a warning to those who are currently healthy. We aren’t making this stuff up. Chemical illness is a real condition and you really don’t want it. Be careful, friends.

http://sharingair.blogspot.com/

 

[From Christa again:  thank you for allowing me to share, Martha! ]

 

Christa Upton      Black Hills Picture Books         PO Box 293       Custer, SD 57730

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