Unexpected Suffering, Unexpected God

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by Christa Upton

If you find God leading you on a frightening journey you never expected, you might want to check out this CD:


In particular, a song on this CD called “Falling” has ministered to me time and time again during my journey with MCS, scary physical symptoms, homelessness, and loss.  “God Leads us Along” is also excellent, containing truth that comforts.

We have a God so Big that He surpasses all our trials, all our sorrows, all our doubts.  (Thank you, Julie L., for this reminder!!)

Your sorrow, your circumstances, and maybe even your friends might tell you that God has (in essence) left you.  Your feelings might scream at you that God does not care.  The overwhelming grief of your situation might threaten to tear you away from the truths of the Bible.  But I am here to tell you that feelings, circumstances, and sometimes even friends lie.  The Word of God is true even when we don’t feel like it is true.

Hebrews 13:5c says, “…for He hath said, I WILL NEVER LEAVE THEE, NOR FORSAKE THEE.”

My Bible has that line in capitals; I like that.

I’m glad God does NOT say He’ll only stick with us if we don’t get angry at Him.

I’m glad He doesn’t threaten to give up on us. “A bruised reed He will not break, And smoking flax He will not quench; He will bring forth justice for truth.”  Isaiah 42:3  http://www.biblestudytools.com/nkjv/isaiah/42.html

I am glad I can’t get away from God!!!

“If I take the wings of the morning,

And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,

Even there Your hand shall lead me,

And Your right hand shall hold me.”

Psalm 139:9-10  http://www.biblestudytools.com/nkjv/psalms/139.html    Never in my life have I felt this Scripture more than now.

In the last four years, I have been terrified, so angry I threw stuff against the wall, so distressed I thought I would drown, so devastated I thought I could not be more broken.

I did not expect God to lead us where He has led us in the last five years.

But neither did I expect to find God as Big as He is.


Christa Upton      Black Hills Picture Books       PO Box 293      Custer, SD 57730

About Christa Upton

I am a wife and mother of three children ages 11, 14, and 18. I used to be a stay-at-home mom (teaching piano & dance, volunteering, etc). From 2007 to 2010, I suffered accidental Toxic Injury (also called Multiple Chemical Sensitivity or MCS). MCS has had major impact on our family, but the forced time in bed has given me time to write. So far, I have published 4 children's books (2 in e-book format on Kindle, one in Print-on-Demand at CreateSpace, and one printed by a local printer). Sometimes I miss my old life, but I love writing for children!
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